For those who know me this won't come as a surprise. I love taking photographs. Like, when I say love I mean I have a serious love for taking a good photograph, capturing a memory, a moment in time. It is probably one of my favourite things to do. It's taken me 20 years, but I've finally seen the light. It's time to jump in to doing what I love.
This love affair dates back to high school. As soon as I graduated I bought myself an enlarger (thanks to my Great Aunt Lil). I remember driving into the Henry's in Toronto to get it and the supplies I would need to continue making my own photographs. Ya, we're talking about the days of film and chemical baths. My beloved enlarger lived back and forth between my parents laundry room and the unfinished basement until the time came to pack it away. It still lives somewhere in the recesses of my parents crawl space. Poor forgotten enlarger.
The times have changed a lot since then.
Back then I didn't know how to get started. Now I've already started a small business.
Back then it was just me. Now it's me and a partner, and 2 zany dogs and 2 beautiful babies.
Back then I was afraid of what the future would hold. Now I'm living in that future and I gotta say, I'm pretty darned happy.
Now is the time of my life.
So there will be some changes here at Kokobaru. Don't worry. I love what I do, and will continue doing custom memory quilts and toys. It's just time for me to jump into offering my photography as a service as well.
While talking with my partner the other day I finally realized what it is that I really 'do'. It hit me. I would say 'dawned on me', but it really felt more like it hit me right in the chest. I deal in memories. All the work I love to do deals with creating or curating memories in one way or another. And so Kokobaru will continue to branch out. I currently focus on handicraft work (in the form of custom memory quilts and toys), creative consulting (a little known secret is that I do educational and interpretive program development and training...if you've attended a birthday party at the Museum of Nature, that's my work) and I will be adding photography to my scope as well. I'll be putting together a portfolio, figuring out a revamped website, or possibly a new website specifically for photography. There's a lot to sort out. Either way, I'm pretty excited about the future.
Never in my wildest, nor tamest dreams did I ever picture the life I have. I gotta say it's a lovely surprise to look around and see where I've ended up. Maybe it's because I'm edging closer to 40 or maybe it's because I feel so loved by my partner and children and the good people in my life, but for whatever reason, the paralyzing fear I used to have of the future seems to have been replaced with an appreciation for the now.
Can't really ask for much more than that now can I?
So here's to jumping in.
I'd love to hear about a time you've 'jumped in', or maybe a time you didn't and wish you had.
Maker of things. Lover of colour and texture and contrast. Thinker & creator. Daughter, sister, partner, mother, friend. Mighty woman.